i've never felt so safe to be in my room in my entire life,. i literally rushed out of the car infront of dad and moe and rushed right into the house, into my room, and stright onto my computer, i had to write this entry
i;m still shaking over it
i've stopped crying, but still shaking
dad and moe talked me into seeing this religoius person, thye told me eveythings gonna be okay and i believed them, i actually went. i did it to please dad. moe knows i'm a girl and he accepts me as i am, but dad's still trying to "cure" me, so i went.
and this religoius person, this fucking asshole, he hit me. i swear to god i;m not lying or mkaing this up, ask Moe, i'll give you his email account or skype or whatever if you think im exagurating, he cant believe it himself. he fucking hit me, god i'm starting to cry now, but i'll finish this journal then go to bed and cry.
he took one look at me
stated to dad that i'm possesed and have split personality (wtf!!!!)
and he hit me hard on my chest
then he grabbed my head from my hair, yanked it back, and spit and blew on me.
the fuck!
then something happened, i cant believe it happened but i swear to fucking god it did, he place both his hands on my throat - i thought he was gonna rub my nect gently, but i swear he strangled me, i started chocking and caughing and my face turned all red. i tried to get away but this fucking duchbag's a fucking mountain
then he let go of me and said he;ll be right back
the momnent he left through the back door
i tried to get to the exit
but dad held me in place
he literaly and physically held me down so i wouldnt go
i told him
Dad! let me go! he's a fucking lunatic, he hit me! let me go!
i swear i even said fucking, and i never said swear words, not online or in real life
but dad didnt let me go
and im not strtong as he is
then the fucking prick came back
he held me down with one arm (yes, he's that fucking strong)
and put something in my nose
idk what it is but it hurt like fucking hell
he told dad to that he's gonna give me a shot
WHO THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE IS
he's not a doctor
who is he to diagnose that i have split personality
or what shot to give me
i knew thiswas fucking crazy
so i had to leave
i put my act together and acted calm and got up
he fuckng knocked me down
i told him calmy
"all i want is to go to the bathroom. it's not like i'm gonna go anywhere"
i even laughed a little so he would think i'll come back
i tooked moe with me so they would let me leave
they blieved the lie and let me get out
the moment i got out i started marching towards the car
and i told moe HE FUCKING HIT ME!
NO ONE HITS ME
NOT EVEN DAD
NO ONE HIT ME AND HE FUCKING HIT ME
AND HE STRANGLED ME
I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE
he said i know, i saw, and i cant believe it too
AND WHAT THE FUCK DID HE PUT IN MY NOSE?! IT HURTS LIKE HELL
you know what i told him?
i told him i cant wait to get home so i could write this
i want the whole world to know how fucking messed up this homophobic/transphobic, backward, midevil-stuck fucking country is
so human rights activists
please believe me when i say this
this man has violated me tonight
tonight i discovered i have no basic human rights
not as long as i'm trans and in kuwait
this might be too early to say
but i think i've just been traumatized for life
I hope life becomes easier and more peaceful for you. My best wishes.